..Yet again, a year has passed. It is interesting to see where people are now in comparison to where they started. The decisions they took, the path they embarked, it is quite remarkable to see where they end up and the people they have become. If one actually pays attention, you will see the metamorphosis of each person and the sight can be either painful to grasp or purely be unremarkably beautiful… and on unique instances, both. You will see the relationships that expanded and faded, the people that developed into the people they were afraid to become, the successes of the hardworking ones, the regrets and promises that caused tidal waves of tears and the nights full of incomplete details yet stays as the irreplaceable ones. And when actually relationships start to deepen, people grow more courageous and situations start to calm after a storm, it was done.
I have not quite figure out yet whether I am satisfied of how this is all going to end. Though I am aware that this is not THE ending, from experience, I have slowly embraced and come to be knowledgeable that change is constant. Is it safe to leave loose strings hanging and questions unrequited? Will it come to haunt us in the end? Or the magic of change will come to rescue and slowly erase the memories of the painful past? It will be different for each one of us and nothing is certain. However, I know that it will again be one hell of a year whether it will be with the same people or new not. Those who stayed are the only people that matters in the end. We are young and reckless with one immense future ahead of us. There are so many things to do, to regret, to cherish, and to embrace and that is the best part. Life keeps going and constantly altering. I was not very fond of change but after having the preeminent change in my life precipitously occurred, I was left breathless and I knew right then that he could not have come in a better timing for I am once again, in love.
He made me feel alive when I was in the middle of deciding what my worth was. This boy caught my heart slowly with the full intent of making me genuinely happy. He made me want to embrace life in the fullest extent and desire to be a better person, not for him but, for myself. He pushed me to raise my hands up and reach farther than the stars for he believed in every inch of me. The passion in his eyes for his own reveries and his love for me motivates me to stretch my talents for the benefits of others. He is everything I ever wished for and now that he is in front of me, I cannot imagine living 84 days without his touch and every single thing of him. As I sit next to him, silently writing this and observing every crevasse of seriousness in his face, I find it hard to hold my tears and to accept that in a few days we can no longer share these simple moments. For the every day I spend with him has been nothing but flawless and inimitable, I just want to hug him tight at this moment, kiss every space of him and not let go because I know that time will force us to separate. He gives me a reason to breathe while also leaving me breathless, every day. The thought of forced discrete makes my lungs tight and my eyes heavy with waves of tears and I know that at that moment will be the first time he will leave me breathless and I will never be thankful for it and my heart will break into pieces.
Yea, I guess I am in love. And I am in love with the best man I could ever think of. I will miss you for you are the half of me that completes me, makes me better and honestly blissful. I love you.